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He’s the first and the only man I’m in love with. He made me cry sometimes, or maybe a couple of times, but then he’s the one also who made me realize that I cried for no reason and he made me cry for a better reason. He never give up on me. No matter what I do, mostly those stupid things, he still ask me if i’m hungry or not every time I go back home. He doesn’t care how small or how big is my mistake. He never thinks about it. He just give me a hug for my mistakes. He’s my dad, he’s my love.
Sep 14

He’s the first and the only man I’m in love with. He made me cry sometimes, or maybe a couple of times, but then he’s the one also who made me realize that I cried for no reason and he made me cry for a better reason. He never give up on me. No matter what I do, mostly those stupid things, he still ask me if i’m hungry or not every time I go back home. He doesn’t care how small or how big is my mistake. He never thinks about it. He just give me a hug for my mistakes. He’s my dad, he’s my love.

"a poet who quoted the glance of an artistic wall. not so bad."

Aug 30
The plane took me.There’s no path for me.Flew through the cloud.The excitement was not so loud.
I knew you before,but I couldn’t be surprise more.
Watched the sun goes down,with favorite faces I’ve known.I’ve seen many sunsets in my life,But here, I feel so alive.
Leisure time was my habit.Pleasure smile was my daily meal.I was adjusted a little bit,with this kind of freedom I never feel.
A thousand pictures can’t describe.A million poems can’t explain.How happy I am now,How sad I am now.
Dear Bali,thank you and see you.
Aug 27

The plane took me.
There’s no path for me.
Flew through the cloud.
The excitement was not so loud.


I knew you before,
but I couldn’t be surprise more.


Watched the sun goes down,
with favorite faces I’ve known.
I’ve seen many sunsets in my life,
But here, I feel so alive.


Leisure time was my habit.
Pleasure smile was my daily meal.
I was adjusted a little bit,
with this kind of freedom I never feel.


A thousand pictures can’t describe.
A million poems can’t explain.
How happy I am now,
How sad I am now.


Dear Bali,
thank you and see you.

Everybody don’t know what it is.
Is it a painting?
But they don’t think so either.
No great painter will paint anything like that.
But everybody know it’s abstract, although not a good one.
It’s a perfect words to describe.
Describe the relations between them.
Abstract, but the colors blend in together.
Nice to see, but not easy to understand.
Let it be, let them be.
Abstract sometimes is good.
Abstract sometimes is enough.
Abstract sometimes explains.
Abstract sometimes easy to understand.


(for my two best buddies who always accompany me every night.)
May 31

Everybody don’t know what it is.

Is it a painting?

But they don’t think so either.

No great painter will paint anything like that.

But everybody know it’s abstract, although not a good one.

It’s a perfect words to describe.

Describe the relations between them.

Abstract, but the colors blend in together.

Nice to see, but not easy to understand.

Let it be, let them be.

Abstract sometimes is good.

Abstract sometimes is enough.

Abstract sometimes explains.

Abstract sometimes easy to understand.

(for my two best buddies who always accompany me every night.)

I’m not sure I’m not too much or even hyperbole. But this feeling always comes every time I see, smell, or listen anything that reminds me about that place. A place where I can be my self and not worry about anything in life. A place when I can be free. Being free is easy, but expensive. I mean not cost money a lot or something like that. But I will feel rich, when I’m being free. Maybe you won’t understand how happy I was when I just sat on a wooden chair and stared at the sea. I just feel very rich.
May 13

I’m not sure I’m not too much or even hyperbole. But this feeling always comes every time I see, smell, or listen anything that reminds me about that place. A place where I can be my self and not worry about anything in life. A place when I can be free. Being free is easy, but expensive. I mean not cost money a lot or something like that. But I will feel rich, when I’m being free. Maybe you won’t understand how happy I was when I just sat on a wooden chair and stared at the sea. I just feel very rich.

"wooden chair, endless conversation, midnight kisses, unconscious mind, hypnotizing gaze, no drama."

Apr 24
It’s dark in the bright.I’m tired being alone in my secrecy.Maybe they’re right.Nobody has a privacy.A soft whisper’s heard so loud,Yell some words that no one should hear.People don’t deserve to be like this,Feeling’s simplicity is so expensive.Stupid passport in my drawer is unimportantAn airplane ticket is what I need.I couldn’t go, even if I want totime is a bitch, it hates me.Under the spatter,Above the groundCome on over,And I’ll see you around.
Apr 23

It’s dark in the bright.
I’m tired being alone in my secrecy.
Maybe they’re right.
Nobody has a privacy.

A soft whisper’s heard so loud,
Yell some words that no one should hear.
People don’t deserve to be like this,
Feeling’s simplicity is so expensive.

Stupid passport in my drawer is unimportant
An airplane ticket is what I need.
I couldn’t go, even if I want to
time is a bitch, it hates me.

Under the spatter,
Above the ground
Come on over,
And I’ll see you around.

Unknown atmosphere, smell, view, feeling, and naked person.
I was closeted in my own confusion.
I guess, I just spent the night in stranger’s room. 
Apr 21

Unknown atmosphere, smell, view, feeling, and naked person.

I was closeted in my own confusion.

I guess, I just spent the night in stranger’s room. 

"Mungkin, Tuhan memberikan manusia otak untuk memberi tahu kalau Ia ada."

- bukan siapa-siapa

Apr 18
Manusia diciptakan sebagai makhluk yang munafik. Ingin menjaga keperawanan, tapi perempuan mengisap kelamin laki-laki di balik selimut. Laki-laki mengajak bercinta, perempuan menolak tapi menyimpan kondom yang menjadi senjata persiapan khayalan liar seksualnya setiap malam dan berharap bisa digunakan suatu saat keberanian muncul. Menjaga jarak dengan laki-laki agar dianggap suci dan tak berdosa padahal berusaha  menggesek-gesek apa pun yang menyerupai kelamin laki-laki ke dalam lubang kenikmatannya setiap malam. Laki-laki yang bercinta dengan perempuannya tapi menonton film porno laki-laki dan laki-laki yang bersenggama setiap sebelum melakukannya. Perempuan melirik dan tersenyum  sampai akhirnya mendapat perhatian dari yang dilirik dan menolak untuk berciuman pada hari menjelang subuh agar tidak dianggap murahan tapi menyesal dan mencium laki-laki yang lain.  Selingkuh karena tidak mendapatkan kepuasan seksual dari pasangannya padahal ia yang tidak berani melakukannya.  Lalu, apa bedanya? Hanya berbeda saja cara menyalurkan nafsu yang menjadi berhala dan berhasil menaklukan manusia. Munafik.

- bukan siapa-siapa
Apr 17

Manusia diciptakan sebagai makhluk yang munafik. Ingin menjaga keperawanan, tapi perempuan mengisap kelamin laki-laki di balik selimut. Laki-laki mengajak bercinta, perempuan menolak tapi menyimpan kondom yang menjadi senjata persiapan khayalan liar seksualnya setiap malam dan berharap bisa digunakan suatu saat keberanian muncul. Menjaga jarak dengan laki-laki agar dianggap suci dan tak berdosa padahal berusaha  menggesek-gesek apa pun yang menyerupai kelamin laki-laki ke dalam lubang kenikmatannya setiap malam. Laki-laki yang bercinta dengan perempuannya tapi menonton film porno laki-laki dan laki-laki yang bersenggama setiap sebelum melakukannya. Perempuan melirik dan tersenyum  sampai akhirnya mendapat perhatian dari yang dilirik dan menolak untuk berciuman pada hari menjelang subuh agar tidak dianggap murahan tapi menyesal dan mencium laki-laki yang lain.  Selingkuh karena tidak mendapatkan kepuasan seksual dari pasangannya padahal ia yang tidak berani melakukannya.  Lalu, apa bedanya? Hanya berbeda saja cara menyalurkan nafsu yang menjadi berhala dan berhasil menaklukan manusia. Munafik.


- bukan siapa-siapa